This morning, I woke up feeling alone. I wasn’t. My husband’s alarm had just blared, and a cat curled against either side of my body.
My heart gaped, a barren wilderness.
Why do humans experience this? Everything around us goes along like the Friday evening commuter train, but our emotions bottom out.
What’s worse: people have complimented me on my amazing marriage.
Ha! That’s what I wanted to yell this morning.
My husband and I are miles apart. I tried to talk to him about x and he kept watching the football game. When I asked him to do y with me, he was too busy cleaning out the garage.
And I want the garage cleaned out as much as the next person. Truly. While he watched football, I read a chapter or two from three separate books I’m plowing through at the moment.
It’s not like it was a life-or-death moment.
But it’s become the norm in our home, rather than the exception.
When Paths Diverge
Many years ago now, I experienced a similar feeling.
We were in a much different place. Our boys had both just begun attending school full-time (now they are college graduates). My husband had a job that required travel, and I was a volunteer at the school, still unsure what to do with time that had previously been dedicated to entertaining my preschool-aged child.
The only similarity: I was trying to pursue my writing dream.
I gave it up back then.
When I described this time to my cousin, I said:
“We’re on different paths. His is moving steadily away from mine. The only way to change things is to turn them toward each other. So I make the choice to abandon my path and join his.”
Those words replayed again this morning. And my immediate thought was, “Well, I changed paths last time so it’s his turn.”
Now you know the truth about how unselfish I’m not.
Love is a Choice
My biggest issue with romance novels and romance movies is they paint love as some intense feeling.
Two people meet. They’re physically attracted to each other. Somehow one of them helps the other out of a jam (maybe they help each other). Hands touch and sparks fly. Lips meet and it’s an earthquake of epic proportions.
Reality is a bit different. Sure, it might start the same way, but once two people commit to a lifetime together, things change.
No matter how perfect someone is, they will eventually rub you the wrong way. Voices will raise. Words which can’t be unspoken will slash tender feelings.
Now it’s time for love to step in. Love says, “I forgive you.” It chooses to forget the hurt and focus on the positive things. It won’t hold a grudge-ever.
Did I feel like letting go of the anger? After all, I was RIGHT. He should have to say it (and we should write it down because it has happened only a handful of times in our nearly three decades together).
I choose to love. Love says, “My way is not as important as keeping the peace.”
I know, completely not what human nature wants to say.
But, when I’m not “feeling the love,” I can still choose to act in a loving way. Because love is a choice.
Encouragement via Email
I follow a few dozen blogs. Some of them appear automatically on my WordPress reader. Others show up in email form.
This Monday, two emails came from two different Christian authors I follow.
The first one, entitled Loving for Life (from Melinda Inman), got a scan. I mean, I didn’t feel like being reminded that I had made a promise on May 27, 1988.
But a few phrases made it past my stubbornness anyway:
“They didn’t mesh seamlessly from day one.”
“Every marriage has the potential to fall apart-all it takes is one of the two partners deciding they’ve had enough.”
But I wasn’t deciding THAT. I just wanted to bask in my right-ness for a few minutes.
So the next email says “The mechanics of love (this is not as boring as it sounds).”
I had to click through to read the entire post. I’m glad I did.
Not because Pastor Bubna said anything new. Nope. I’d heard it all before. Many times. I’d even said some of it when doling out advice.
I needed to hear it today. These two writers spoke straight to my heart.
Their encouragement landed in my inbox at the exact moment I needed it.
And I put my right to being right aside. Seriously. Who needs it? Wouldn’t I rather have a husband who is my best friend?
The little voice that whispered, “It’s the writing that’s the problem” got snuffed, too.
It isn’t the writing. In fact, the writing has the potential to offer the same sort of encouragement to a world of people who I will never meet face-to-face. Like the two emails did for me.
The writing is a gift from the Giver of Life, and He recently showed me a more perfect way to use it for Him. So, of course, the enemy stepped right up hoping to discourage me from moving in that direction.
Friends, choose love today. You might not feel like it, but that’s okay. Love is always the right choice – and rarely the easy choice.
Any of my regular readers have any experience similar to these? Share your lessons. Be the encouragement others need.
9 thoughts on “Encouragement at the Right Moment”
This was beautiful, and really resonated with me. Thank you for your honest wisdom.
Sometimes the message makes it through my hard head. Better share it when it does!
Chin up, woman. You got this! We’re here to help you however we can.
Very well said. Love is the best choice when you have a great relationship. Forgiveness is so important to every relationship to keep it healthy and growing. We all need to be reminded occasionally. I ask myself” is this a big deal in the big picture of our life? ” Then get over myself because most of the time its not!
It’s funny how some days, this love thing is like second nature, and other days, it feels like hard work.
Love = Forgiveness
Thank you, Sharon! How often do we writers get notification of the moment when our words arrive at exactly the right time! You speak truth here, Sister, and you encourage me today. The point is to choose to love, not to try to “win.”
Your words often encourage me. I will try to drop a little note whenever they do, so you’ll know you’re right where God wants you, reaching people you’ve never met with the words He gives.
I’m happy to return the favor and encourage you for once!
Ah! Thank you so much, Sharon!
Thank you for such thought provoking writing this morning. It is definitely something we all need to keep in mind on a daily basis. It always makes me feel less “alone” knowing that someone else is having (or has had) the same feelings I have. Thanks for sharing.
You are never alone, cousin.
Glad God used my words to make your day better.
Thanks for reading – and commenting.